EXPERIENCE (the beginning)

me one day!

 Hi world!! May you have a good day today. 
This is quit sometimes i didn't wrote anything in my blog. This past two weeks I am quit busy. I had exam earlier that why not doing some writing. hehe.. So today I don't really have any intention to write about medical stuff. I just wanna share some of my experiences in medical world.(it is not much at all but still i wanna share) 
 So, to be honest i never thought I will take this course during my university years. It is because I wanna enjoy my college life and finish my study early then working,have my own money,married with handsome man and have lovely kids. That what I planned when i'm 17 years old. But I guess we just can plan but everything is in GOD hand. 
Now, I'm here doing medicine. My friends quit surprise when i told them i'm doing medicine. Some of them thought i'm joking. But when they know i'm serious (dead serious ) they give me full of their support. (that why i love them). 
I know GOD have reason giving this opportunity me. I accept it with open hand. even sometimes i'm wondering why. My SPM is not really good. (spm is an exam like college entrance exam) I don't get straight A's. My foundation result also not 4.00. Despite of all that, God still give me the opportunity to take medical courses.So, I'm grateful. 
When I' studying, i face many diffulties in my courses subject. especially for anatomy. I couldn't remember all those muscles. (muscles are so damn many) So I fail my first exam. I got F-. My essay is the worst amongs other paper.I got lower F for my essay. My heart feel like it is stop but i couldn't cry. ( why i dont cry because crying is uncool). i am devastated. My body feel like it is crushing. I never failed in exam before and now i already failed.
 So back to my room, i prayed to god. Asking HIM   to help me. i'm not strong enough at that time. I cried hard in my pray.Nobody will understand how it felt to be failed. I don't wanna told my mom because she won't understand too.So, i prayed to god to get some inner strength. So that night, i review back my action during before the exam and i realizes that i not really studying hard enough to get the good result. 
Every cloud has a silver lining. You may not get it now but you get it later. So for the upcoming exam i will strive harder to improve my result. I formed study group with my friends every week to discuss the previous lecture and to share our understanding. It help me to understand better. i really thank her for her help. 
So, last two week I had a second exam. and my result ,Alhamdulliah it is improve a lot. may be it is not A+ but the most important thing is........
 i PASS!! I'm so happy!!
 Im gonna kill the 3rd exam. 
I'm thank to  ALLAH for listening my pray everyday, 
I'm thanking to ALLAH for making me peace when im miserable. 
I'm thanking to ALLAH for everything. 
My life is better with HIM beside me. 

So, guys being  medical student ain't easy.be strong because you can do it. share your problem with friends and family (if you thinks they can help you) it is because we are not alone in this world. If you thinks no one can help you,nobody understand your problem, turn back to the creator. God understand everything. Take your time everyday to talk to him. it is not wasting your time. believe me it help.
if you are muslim, dont ever ever leave your prayer.

formula to success 
success = effort + pray (doa) + tawakal ( accept the result as it is) 
 I hope everyone are success in what ever they do. 
sincerely,
Aldrin